February 18, 2011

Pukul 2 pagi tadi

Maak telefon.

'Hello, Maak,' Aku jawab.

'Nani, tadi Ustaz Manzur telefon. Dia pi kem dengan Ayah bawak budak-budak.'

'Ustaz kata apa?'

'Ayah masuk hospital. Serangan jantung.'

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Masa tu Aku ingat Aku akan rasa macam apa yang Aku selalu baca dalam buku. Masa macam terhenti, jantung tak berdegup tiba-tiba, air mata tumpah tanpa sedar, dunia busy body gila nak berkecai dan whatever jadah shit corny nak mampus punya pengalaman. Rupanya tak. Kantoi kot penulis-penulis buku ni semua tak pernah ada ayah yang masuk ward sebab serangan jantung. Tipu gila apa yang mereka tulis.

Sebab apa yang Aku rasa itu satu benda baru. Perasaan yang engkau, engkau, engkau mahupun ENGKAU tak mampu namakan. Engkau boleh bayangkan ada gunung atas dada engkau? Engkau cuba darabkan beban itu dengan seberapa banyak nombor yang engkau tahu. Sampai hancur kalkulator imaginasi engkau lagi bagus. Itu pun baru sezarah dari apa yang Aku rasa masa itu. Sezarah.

Dahsyat, bukan?

Kamu semua, Aku minta tolong doakan Ayah. Itu saja.

Nanti bila Aku dah mula waras, Aku update. Until then, you guys take care.

Salam.

29 scribbleback (s):

honey bedazzled said...

insya allah, ur father will recover, i will help to pray.
my father dulu masuk hospital jugak, for one months i dapat rasakan apa yang u rasa bukan sehari, sebulan. macam nak mati rasa. tak keruan. keep ur spirit high and be tough, u and ur family will need that.

Masrudy Omri said...

Insya Allah, he will recover. Be strong.

farhan azmi said...

no matter what happen,be strong nani.Insya Allah he will recover.

aNniE said...

insyallah dia akan sembuh..aminnn..u kuatkan semangat ye..

GHAH said...

This is my first time putting a comment here. :)
Hope your father is fine, InsyaAllah.

amirah said...

InsyaAllah everything will be okay.. I'm praying for a speedy recovery for him, and you and your family will keep the spirit up.

Lisa Farhana said...

Be strong, Teacher!
He will be okay, InsyaAllah.
Everything will be okay.

| Larasephia | said...

Ya, insyallah everything will be ok. Hang in there Nani

cik_paan said...

insya Allah, evrythnigs gonna be ok

juzDYLL said...

May he recover soon. insyaAllah. =)

MuNsYi SaMa said...

Syafakallah. semoga Ayah teacher nani cepat sembuh. Banyakkan berdoa. InsyaAllah evrythings gonna be fine.

Kasih nur azie said...

semoga ayah nani akan diberikan kesihatan dan kesembuhan.

Ayaq said...

Insyaallah he'll get better. :)

inna hayati said...

hope ur father is fine nani...insyaAllah...
doa banyak2 ya..:D

Adi Khairuddin said...

hope everything will be ok...
sabar eh kak nani...

Wan Suhail said...

Be strong teacher

President said...

sy doakan ayah kak nani selamat.
InsyaAllah..

Aisya S. said...

Keep him in your prayers, insyaAllah he'll get better.

One thing I learned from having a father suffer from a stroke is that those closest to the patient need to remain strong in order for the patient to remain strong.

xoxo

mR.sYaH said...

kuatkan semangat..
doa byk2...
InsyaAllah semuanya akan baik..
semoga ayah nani cepat sembuh..

nooratikah said...

kita sama-sama doa yang terbaik.. insyaALLAH...

aleen meow said...

InsyaAllah ur father will be fine..aminn..

Nurdyana said...

Praying that your father will recover his health, biiznillah.~

FZ said...

Be strong and pray the best for him.

farah booboo said...

sis, insyaAllah everything will be just fine....together we pray for his recovery..

be strong as your mum needs your strength as well.
and being away from them needs you to be even stronger.

love,
farah.

ButirStar said...

be strong nani.

i know that u r a very strong person.

kuatkan semangat dgn jangan lupa minta doa byk2 kat Allah.

Kaklong akan doakan supaya ayah nani cepat sembuh

Nani Othman said...

honey - thanks a lot. my dad's out. for your prayers, thank you.

rudy - thank you.

farhan azmi - thank you. =)

annie - i sure am being strong. thanks.

ghah - thank you.

amirah - thank you so much. we are keeping it up. =)

Nani Othman said...

lisa - thanks so much.

larasephia - im hanging in here. thank you.

cik paan - thank you.

juzdyll - thanks so much.

munsyi - i did. i still do. thank you.

kasih - amiin.

ayaq - thanks a lot.

kak inna - i sure did. still do. thanks!

adi - thanks. =)

Nani Othman said...

wan suhail - will try.

president - thank you. amiin.

aisya - thanks sangat. =,) i was strong at the hospital. because i want him to be strong, too.

mr syah - thank you. i did. alhamdulillah.

nooratikah - thank you, pal.

aleen - amiin.

nurdyana - amiin. thank you.

fz - i am. i am. thank you.

Nani Othman said...

farah - thank you. amiin. i think im a lot stronger now. thanks.

long - thank you. amiin. nani tabah ni!

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