November 19, 2010

So teaching is your LAST choice, no?


Been a while since I last scribbled here. I was occupied with things I wish to not share with my readers because they'd definitely bore you. Grammar stuff. Writing stuff. Not everyone's cup of tea. I know. We'll skip that. Don't worry.

I need to let of some steam now. Emo fags can leave. Awesome people, stay (if you want).

A few days ago I got pissed (You: Nice way to start a post). If you're a frequenter of my ramblings you'd realize this. It's not easy to piss me off, and I piss people off really easily. But there were exceptional moments in which there were exceptional issues, I get pissed. Really pissed.

'Aku kalau tak dapat kerja lain, aku apply lah jadi cikgu. Jadi cikgu ni last choice aku lah,' was the shitty statement that pissed me off some days ago. I mean really, last choice? The way some people think TOO highly of themselves amazes me sometimes. Note to self: I should stop thinking too highly of myself, too. I must have been pissing SO many people already. Ish.

So teaching is a noble profession. It accepts people with even the sick above mentality into its elite circle of educators who have always wanted to teach, to make a change. Really man, who in heaven are you to have the right to claim ANY job on earth to be your last choice? Where did that demeaning statement come from? Kepala engkau jadi besar gila tiba-tiba sebab engkau ada degree urban planning (walaupun engkau taktau pun apa benda engkau belajar selama 4 tahun tu)?

Now, I'm not apologizing for this: These people are a bunch of morons who actually believed that they're doing the education system a favor by filling in the posts as teachers – while at the same time proudly proclaiming that, 'Kalau aku dapat kerja lain, aku tak mintak jadi cikgu.' These kind of sick-minded people; idiots, DISGUST me. Big time. Gila annoying ah orang macam ini. Perasan tahap tinggi punya disgusting.

If you're one of these people, what in the burning hell actually made you think that there's even ONE of us who chose this profession as our first had EVER wanted YOU to be one of US (even if you're the last living thing on earth and the world will end if you don't become a teacher)? We teachers have witnessed enough garbage that came into schools (because their degrees aren't getting them the right jobs) bringing nothing but ruin with them. Semuanya sebab teaching was their last choice. We don't want you here. We never did.

Your degrading statement, keep it to yourself. It's ugly you know, being desperate and jobless and seeking pity from a system you so fucktardingly claimed to be your last resort when the truth is - as most of us know – it had always been your only choice ever, because it's the only forgiving one ever. It's the only profession on earth that accepts people like you – who had nothing but a degree that just won't get you any job (because well, you have your own reasons, don't you?). The only one that gives chances to people to change and become more than they thought they could. But some people just don't learn. While some just won't.

Since when did the education system become a dumpster of people who squeezed through engineering, architecture, programming, networking etc, with this huge-ass stupid way of thinking along the way; It's OK to be small as long as you have a job? Seriously, dude. If you think we're small, you shouldn't be here. You really shouldn't.

If you're not since the beginning, at all, teacher material – do something else. Don’t teach. It's frustrating seeing people who are not meant for the job struggling with it. Terrible sight. I feel the insane urge to break their noses everytime they whine about how this job isn't for them and they're doing it anyway so the kids better appreciate them. Like seriously man, you have to be freaking mentally disturbed to actually have the nerve to say something like that. And like seriously too, man, unless you haven't heard; teaching isn't really for everyone.

Pft.

I'm sorry if this came as a shock to some of you. I needed a place to vent my negative charges off, and I hate to get all emo-bapuk-ish on my FB wall. So here I am. Heh. Itu belum I mengamuk kes orang-orang yang perasan layak jadi cikgu English just because they blog in (crappy) English. I hope I won't ever have to. Haha. Gila jahat statement terbabit. Tiba-tiba pulak. XD

How's everyone by the way?

November 9, 2010

Making marks

on the students' answer scripts is hard, treacherous work. I won't be able to write anything anytime soon. But I will be back.

Yes. It's hard, treacherous work.

And I love my job.

November 7, 2010

What makes you beautiful?


A beautiful person isn't necessarily a woman. Men can be beautiful, too - 'My husband is a beautiful person. He makes me laugh at the worst of times,' said a friend. 'I'm beautiful because I love you,' was a text from a friend's boyfriend. And, 'My father is beautiful. He told me I'm the best kid anyone could ever have. I thank God for giving me the best Dad in the world,' was an ending from a student's essay about his father.

I believe that to be beautiful is a choice anyone can make. And since beauty is subjective to almost everyone – you should be able to define beauty easily. You should be able to answer anyone who asks, 'What makes you beautiful?' easily, too. Like I do. Hehe.

What makes you beautiful doesn't necessarily make others look better, nor does it go the other way round. Nobody decides whether you're beautiful or not or what being beautiful really means. It's a personal choice. And no one should make it for you.

I believe I'm beautiful because I'm always thankful that I'm a Muslim, I'm thankful that I'm given countless chances to do good, I don't try to become someone else, I'm fun (you bet I am), I love my family, I appreciate arts, I love easily, I have a terribly soft spot for animals especially cats, I don't tend to lie about how I feel about anything, I'm honest, I'm insanely dedicated to my job, I'm realistic, I'm creative, I'm able to laugh at myself and learn from my mistakes (even the painful ones), I don't fake my smiles (though I can effortlessly fake my tears), I don't fake empathy, I don't keep grudges, I apologize right away when I make mistakes, I forgive everyone and everything everyday, I don't regret the past, I love my students, I love my job, I read like I'm possessed, I write like I'm exorcizing, I draw like I've never heard of cameras, I can befriend almost anyone - and I could go on for another mile or two of what makes me beautifuls, but I don't think that'd be necessary. I think you get me already. *winks*

Now you decide. Like I said, it's a choice everyone should be able to make, easily.

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So, what makes YOU beautiful?

Answers in the comment box. Come on.